Gravity
Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do I’ll still feel you here ’til the moment I’m gone.
You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your rain.
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Set me free, leave me be. I don’t want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I’m supposed to be.
But you’re on to me and all over me.
You loved me ’cause I’m fragile.
When I thought that I was strong.
But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone.
[CHORUS]
I live here on my knees as I try to make you see that you’re everything I think I need here on
The ground.
But you’re neither friend nor foe though I can’t seem to let you go.
The one thing that I still know is that you’re keeping me down
Something always brings me back to you
It never takes too long
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It's playing softly in my ears. no really a little too loud. i see his lips move and i can't tell what he's saying. let me pause it for a moment. "love you honey bear". I smile at him.
...." you're everything i think i need here on the ground....one thing that i still know is that you're keeping me...."
I hum them lightly. i remember that even with them in my ears. even with the music playing. i can still hear the rain. i can still remember the feel of it seeping into my shoes. I can still remember lyng on my bed when i was 14 with my face on the window sill. lying at the foot of my bed. listening to the rain. i remember it.
..."you hold me with out touch. and keep me with out chains.....I never wanted anything so much, that to drown in your love and not feel your rain....set me freee.....leave me be, i don't want to fall another moment into your gravity...."
Here I am. And really I do stand so tall. ...."you loved me cuz I'm fragile, and I thought that I was strong. but you touch me for a little while, and all my fragile strength is gone,..."
She knows when she's going. Why the hell can't i get this out of my head. really? really, i barely know her. i know her but she's Chips friend. still she's lovely. or she always has been to me. she knows. why can't i get this out of my head? it's selfish. is it selfish I can't stop thinking about it? i can feel him hurting. i can feel her acceptance. still...
"....no matter what i say or do. i still feel you here, till the moment I'm gone..."
"...I love you...I love you too honey"..that's him and I . Not the song. I have friends at work that have asked about chip and I being together. just in general. "how did you two meet?" and i tell them that he knew and worked with my mom. we didn't really know each other. I was seeing a not so great guy. my mom talked of chip ever single chance she got.always marvelous things. attributes he possessed. i didn't notice. not for a while. one day i did. he looked so wonderfull to me that day. he looks so wonderfull to me today. now.
"....something always brings me back to you...."
at work. she complains about wanting love so badly. marriage and a family. but she gives her body, before she even knows her own heart. the issues are ignored and the minor things dwelled upon daily. maybe i'm not better in my speculations. still I dont understand it. physical acknowledgement...but what is it with out some semblance of meaning? a trace of love? it's empty.
"...never takes too long.."
our days are like bits of some long meaningfull conversation that we're constantly going off into other sub topic. like that metaphorical road with winding, deep and steep paths....like something so pre determined really what's the use? and what's so fresh and new my indivituality IS my insignificance, but why can't THAT be beautifull too?
i'm getting tired. but i look to my right and i'm so in love with him i still kind of want to start crying if i think too hard on it. isn't THAT what matters?
I hope so.
".......no matter what I say or do. I still feel you here, till the moment I'm gone.
